overwhelming thoughts are bursting right now as the clock ticks. the results of the two medical schools i applied are yet to be posted. just like what happened five years ago, out of all the schools i applied, why do i feel like i will pass none?
please come through, upcm and asmph. make it my one step closer to my dreams — lalaban lagi para sa bayan.
i wish i can be reborn into another family.
this quarantine makes me feel a lot of things
sad, lonely, empty
two exams were already done
why do i feel like out of the two, i will pass none?
the amount of things to do with so little time
help me, i do not want to fail :c
Take your time.
Look around you– feel the embrace of the blazing sun, remember the fleeting memory of people as they pass you by.
Gaze around you– notice the smell of the passenger seat, see the sparkle of lights that surround the road.
Look, gaze, and take your time.
Recall the moment when you picture yourself with a white coat; the stethoscope hanging around your collarbone; the smile of satisfaction after saving lives.
Recapture the moment when you dream of journeying the whole world and unraveling the eccentricity of each cities.
Recall, recapture, and take your time.
Sigh in relief seeing the success of your family in their own endeavors.
Pat your shoulders for gaining friends whom you can truly rely on.
Sigh in relief, pat your shoulders, and take your time.
Life is but a paradox of your desire. While following the beacon of light, you suddenly became aware that you have finally reached the end of the streetlights.
You took your time. Now it’s time to go.
–
[special thanks to daniel caesar’s streetcars for making me feel things]
am i really meant for this?
why do i feel so insufficient?
i just want to give up now.
less than a month in UP
yet i’ve experienced flunking quizzes
i feel like i do not belong here
my efforts are not enough
will this be worthy in the end?
-g.d
SIMPLYGEMMA 